All in by Freesia McKee

by Freesia McKee

In a few hours I’ll score
my loss and blessings

lying in bed like the cats
we count when we walk

the dog When I was a small kid
spring was palm fronds

shaking hands in church In the pew
I closed my eyes The green backdrop

behind the cat Misu hides
under the bench In this city

I’m supposed to be a teacher
Mispronounced a student’s name

for weeks Would we say something
again if we knew the other person would

change My
assumption

as Misu’s tail wraps around my wrist
I think of eating lunch once

when we got a phone call A friend
had died We thought we knew who

I stopped chewing I remember
the carrots in my mouth

The hunched shoulders the shudder
before a second phone call a miracle

from the person we thought was gone
It rained so hard when we drove here

A wet accident at the end of our block
Could have been her or us

The cat running past
Rubbing his soft head against

my calves Misu’s back
He’s re-appeared I’m want to tell

our neighbor Oobi
his cat’s escaped the trains cars

the predators this time Only loss
can redeem itself like this

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Freesia McKee is author of the chapbook How Distant the City (Headmistress Press, 2018). Her words have appeared in Flyway, Bone Bouquet, So to Speak, Tinderbox Poetry Journal, Virga, Painted Bride Quarterly, CALYX, About Place Journal, South Dakota Review, New Mexico Review, and the Ms. Magazine Blog. Freesia is a staff book reviewer for South Florida Poetry Journal. Her reviews have also appeared in Tupelo Quarterly, Pleiades Book Review, Gulf Stream, and The Drunken Odyssey. Freesia was the winner of CutBank Literary Journal’s 2018 Patricia Goedicke Prize in Poetry, chosen by Sarah Vap. Find her online at freesiamckee.com or on Twitter at @freesiamckee.