A friend beams to me
about the ASL class she’ll take this spring
and I feign delight
while swallowing the secret
that my parents taught me
sign language early:
I became fluent in their dialect
of disapproval and blistering
syntax of spite.
My friend will learn
the international sign for Happy Birthday
a grimace for that tastes funny
maybe a full-body expression of jubilation;
I was raised to read impatience
in a double finger snap
gnarled lips of disgust
and the finger wag shame on you.
Perhaps she’ll stumble
through the first conversations,
get tutors for finger spelling, or join
a study group to increase speed.
I was an apt student
enrolled in the total immersion program
though some signs I never learned:
I am enough.